Is this the case with (1) everyone. (2) few. (3) none.

Words are getting superfluous. Empty talks are ruling my life. This is a night out. This is a victory in a game of aoe 1 on 1. This is a nightmare. I can't see where this is leading. Life has proved time and again that my heart rules over my brain to a sufficiently magnanimous extent. And my heart on impulse happens to be 60% predictable, routine, and illogical. Brain is something that keeps switching on and off. You need to remember that there is something called brain. Plug it in. and switch it on!
More than half the classes in this sem already bunked. Misery all over. Still in dark about internship next year. A Things-to-do list that is sitting pending since weeks. Big flabby tummy and biggest of all, the pretentious, artificial loathing of "I'm not doing anything. I fear where my life is leading". Sometimes, I wonder is this really the case with most people around me. (They keep assuring me that its the same with everyone though I doubt their honesty in that revelation.)
My room is a mess. My schedule is a mess. I never do most of the useful and relevant things I want to do.
Perhaps, I should start listening to myself. Keep reminding myself that I got a brain. I need to listen to my brain at times. I need to follow a schedule like the good guys in fairy tales do. Attend all classes like few morons do. Be a geek for some time. Do things like revision, solve question papers in free time, visit the library twice a week, prepare for any exam, and get jeered by the peers that see me doing any one of these. Perhaps, then I will find peace. Peace that will help me enjoy this worthless game of aoe without any guilt, full of satisfaction, of raping enemies.
Its high time I resurrected my intelligence, the agility, the articulacy, the precision, the retention and all that will make me happy for myself. Follow the brain for once. This is all to the bloody, pissy self loathing. World has bigger problems than mine. I'm getting involved in something bigger. I need to realize stuff.

Currently Playing: Dance of death, Iron Maiden